“Patience is waiting. Not passively waiting. That is laziness. But to keep going when the going is hard and slow - that is patience.”

Life is a funny thing.

I spend a lot of time trying to work out who I am, what I'm trying to be- how I act and how I make others feel- I'm trying to be compassionate.
Of course; life is never really that straightforward, perhaps I've got schizophrenia or something like that and can't make my mind up- but then the more I think about it, the more I think- well maybe it's just the way I am?
I remember someone said to me ''That we spend too much time looking forward to the future, that we forget what is here right in front of us''- I suppose I've missed it all along- trying to manipulate my responses to people- I can't help it, but I think it's just how I am.

I'm not very good with people and so tend to bury myself in my work, yet when I'm comfortable around a handful of people- I can be as loud as you like- I'm very talkative and can be quite fiery in character too. But then when I'm around Shadow, or people I don't know as well, I am quite shy and reserved.

Shadow definitely brings out the best in me- if there is such thing! I find that I am really at home and feel I can be myself- not having to worry about what Joe Bloggs thinks about me or how I look- I can just relax and forget about everything else.

Which brings me to what I really wanted to talk about- not caring about what others think and being who I am- but also letting Shadow be WHO he is- he's just as important and patience has become our key philosophy and as I say '' the 4 p's - Patience, Persistence, Passion and Perseverance' I am developing all these traits slowly but surely, and my passion is always increasing.

A lot of people I know think that what I do with Shadow is silly, he's progressing at like 1m.p.h to a lot of people- most people have their youngsters out on the show circuit and I'm sort of dawdling along- the difference is I'm content- I think Shadow is content- it works. By ironing out all the issues right now, it means we can focus on the other stuff later on. Not only that; but I can be confident that any problems which may face us in the future are unlikely to have stemed from poor foundations set!


No matter how long it takes and no matter what people think, I suppose it's just about enjoying the ride- the journey can be the best bit- if you take the best route!


No more fear, submission, dominance or pushiness- just a calm ride, through a gentle breeze!


Life is bliss